Comatosed

I awake with a yawn with my eyes still closed. I roll out of my bed and go to turn the light on.  Not finding the switch or walls I open my eyes and everything is dark. I start to think I have gone blind. I look down and see my Light skinned feet with my hairy man legs, wearing basketball shorts that I never wear out attached to my torso. I’m not blind if I can see myself but why can’t I see anything else? I hear something faint… its getting louder…”hello? Whose there?” I strain to hear the sound and it sounds like my mother… but she’s sad, why is she sad? Through choked sobs I hear her say I love you then she fades away, everything is quiet and I decide to walk around this space to see if theirs a way out… how did I end up here?  The sound comes back, but this times its some one different. It’s impossible to walk closer to the sound because it’s as if the sound comes from the sky.  Is this a room? Or am I staring at the black sky that meets with the black floor forever and ever. This place is endless but I focus on the voice.  Again its sad and I know at once that it is my dearest friend Anna. “It wasn’t suppose to happen like this, we were suppose to move in together… you were suppose to be Tio…..” it fades off and she is gone. I run after her yelling ”Anna, come back, I’m still here. Wait, I’m here.”

I fall to my knees out of breath. Why did she say it wasn’t suppose to happen like that? What did she mean I was SUPPOSE to be Tio? Why can’t I still be tio…? Am I dead?” A third voice appears and I automatically know who it is, Angelica.  She doesn’t speak but just sobs. She soon pulls it together, “Really Jose it had to be you. I love you don’t forget that. Here take this.” She disappears just like everyone else.  I had open my hand and seen a picture of us,  Angelica and myself. I don’t know how it was possible but where ever she was had connected with me for a bit. I stare at the picture and cry. I’m dead.  and some how I’m stuck here in this …. hell. I wouldn’t say its hell but more of a limbo, a dark nothingness. As soon as I am aware of this a light is shown shining ahead. I look up and the light comes towards me.  I  try to get up but I can’t. A seat belt that appeared on my body has stopped me. I’m in the back seat of a car. “How did I get here?” I unfasten my belt and move forward to see whose in control of this car.  I look over and see Anna driving, she’s so happy. Not at all like I heard her a few minutes ago. Seeing her makes a change in me, its good to see her face. I smile and start to speak but am cut off by the directions of her eyes. She looks at me but she isn’t looking at me…she’s looking through me. I turn over to see whose behind me, sitting in the passenger seat. Its me! . I jump back to my seat, unaware and confused about this whole mess. Why am I here and there….?  And why cant they see me? I listen to there/our  conversation and its funny and carefree. They have no idea that I’m eavesdropping.

I cant help to think that this all seems familiar ….  A sense of déjà-vu. I look out the window and see a pizza shop, New City Pizza. I remember the time not to long ago when  we passed that shop and a cat had ran out in front of the car.  In fact this is the farthest I can  think back. Just at that moment The car jerked to a stop. Since I am invisible or non existing in this reality you figured that hitting my head on the car seats didn’t hurt but it does.  “Oh my god, did you see that cat.” Anna screams.  My other self laughs and calls her stupid,” Stop being stupid and drive.”  The scene flashes and I’m now standing outside New City Pizza, looking at a  Black Honda  speeding down the block. I look over to the direction its going in and I see a volkswagon stopping to miss the a cat. I look in the car and see Anna and myself laughing. They have no idea that the speeding car is headed towards them. I Have to warn them. ”Stop being stupid and drive.” I hear myself say. I start running to warn them, but its to late the speeding car has crashed into them and impacted my the passenger side. The room goes black and I am left in the dark. ”I’m dead.” Astonished by what just happen I begin to cry. I look up to see a light shiny down on me.” Oh what now!?”  And I see a door. Not just a door but the door from my childhood. The door had my name in blue letters, with mickey mouse standing above them. There’s pictures I drew when I was 5 and 6 on the door. And I have a urge to walk through it. I don’t know where it leads to but I need to go through it, I have to. As i reach out to touch the knob I here a man yelling. My chest begins to have a slight pain. “no dont die on me, Clear!” Scared I walk away from the door and as i do t vanishes. Getting smaller and smaller as the darkness around me alters.

 I awake again but this time with a jerk. My chest is on fire. I look around to see the nothingness i was trapped in but i see no blackness, instead Im in a room with a light, with a mom, friends and heroes. I am seen and heard and most importantly loved.